Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I Gave Birth to a Mini-Monk!

I swear my child is turning into Adrian Monk.

Sees something on the floor that doesn't belong? "Mama. Mama. Mama. Icky!"

Gives one of the dogs a treat? Immediately heads for the bathroom to wash her hands.

Eats her food with her hand instead of a utensil? ::Sticks her hand out:: "Mama. Icky!" And waits for me to wipe her hand.

Plays outside in the sandbox? Hands MUST be washed the minute she walks through the door.

A loose or dangling thread on her clothing? "Mama. Mama. Aaaaahhhfff!" This continues until I cut the dangling thread.

She might be a little obsessive-compulsive about things but she sure is cute.

Wordless Wednesday: Reflection

Saturday, March 27, 2010


Don't like how things are going in your life?

Try looking at the world from a new perspective and see what you get.

Happy Saturday!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Seen and Overheard

Cast of characters: Me, Sophie and a Tiger Trash can from the Container Store.

Me: Sophie. No-no. Trash is icky.
Sophie: ::ignores Mommy::
Me: Sophie, honey, please leave the tiger trash alone. I move Sophie from the scene of the crime in her room and continue prepping her bath.

Sophie heads back to her room where I hear the rustling of plastic. And WHAT exactly is she doing?

Hiding behind her closed door taking apart the trash can and its contents.

Sophie: ::Giving Mommy a huge grin:: Ahh-gone!!

I guess she figures if we can't SEE her she's not doing anything wrong, right?

Well, this is also what happens when my back is turned for just a few seconds:

Sophie - 2; DVDs - 0
Yes, friends, this is the SECOND DVD she's broken.*

*I feel we must explain: Sophie is a very independent child. She quickly mastered opening and removing DVDs from their cases. A lot of the newer DVD cases have come with a more "secure" center holder and therefore after multiple toddler-removals the DVD cracks under the pressure. All DVDs are now WAY out of reach. Silly Mommy previously thinking putting the DVDs on a higher shelf would solve this....nope, it only results in a more determined Sophie to climb to the location.

Wordless Wednesday: YUM!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Ready or Not?

From the time I was pregnant with the Little Miss and even after she was born, we knew we wanted to begin trying for our second child by the time Sophie hit 18 months. That time is approaching much more quickly than we could imagine and we're left wondering, "Are we ready or not?" As we both grow older we know, were we both perfectly healthy (reproductively speaking), things become more difficult. There's more risk for complications or abnormalities as we age so we both wanted to try for number two before we reached those "cut-off points".

The struggles I had getting pregnant with the Little Miss leave me wondering if I'm truly ready to potentially experience all those emotions again. I, personally, have a lot to prepare for physically. I not only need to get my body prepared for carrying a child by taking vitamins but I need to return to my strict diet of no-refined carbs, no sugars and limit my red meat consumption. I TRIED to stick to this diet (I need to anyway to avoid becoming a diabetic later in life) but do you know how difficult it is to avoid all those things!? My lunches are often chock-full of all the things I SHOULDN'T be eating because it's CONVENIENT. And all those lovely, wonderful sweet things I'm not supposed to have? Yep, those taste so good. I have no will power to resist them. I guess where I struggle the most is lack of time. Avoiding all these refined carbs and sugars meant I had to bake or make pretty much everything I consumed. And currently I don't HAVE the time. When The Little Miss naps, I work. The days I choose not to work I'm either frantically cleaning the house or doing some other high-priority task. Oh and exercise? Yeah, can't find the time for that like I really need to. And this bothers me. I KNOW to successfully get pregnant and carry a child to term with little to no complications, I HAVE to do these things. I have no choice.

My OB reminded me that it's possible we won't have issues. That our problems were solved by successfully carrying a child to term. I know deep down though that I can't go into a pregnancy the way I am now. I am WAY too heavy. My diet would likely lead to Gestational Diabetes or other complications. All of this is upsetting because I feel stuck. I don't know WHERE in my day I'm going to find the time to make the lifestyle changes that need to be made again.

Then there's the sleep factor. I LIKE my sleep. I wonder, constantly, how I made it through the newborn days of little sleep and that was without a toddler also demanding attention. Y is such a good Dad and husband. He often allows me a few days a week to have some extra sleep. It may be only an hour but it's MY time. Add a newborn to the mix and I know those days will go bye-bye. There's time to make up all those lost hours of sleep when they're in college, right!?

We know there's never a perfect time to have kids or expand the family. We can only pray to be blessed a second time. I feel like I'm making excuses to put off something we want or perhaps, the true reality, I'm making excuses for MYSELF. I need a kick in the butt to get myself in gear and be motivated to make the changes I need to make. I need to have faith and think positively that, perhaps this time around, I won't have to experience the pain and heartache that came with month after month of failure. Month after month of being reminded I'M the reason we're not pregnant. Month after month of infertility rearing it's ugly head. If I'm honest with myself it's those factors that scare me - am I strong enough to endure those again IF they were to happen again?? Currently, I'm not sure I am.

Then I look at these:

and think "Why should we put this off?!"

Monday, March 15, 2010

What a Difference a Year Makes!

These pictures were taken exactly a year apart. I can't believe how much she's changed in the course of a year!!

January 3rd:

January 11th:

January 13th:

February 5th:

February 12th:

February 13th:

February 14th:

March 2nd:

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Wordless Wednesday: SPLASH!

La Jolla, CA circa 2006

Tuesday, March 2, 2010


Daddy was able to leave for some time in the office today without any tears from The Little Miss. No tears. No meltdown. Baby steps. Progress!

Seeing what a career as a rapper might be like.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Cancer Sucks.

My heart is heavy today.

I'm trying to wrap my mind around a loving God whose will is to take a precious 2 year-old dying from stage 4 neuroblastoma. If you haven't heard about Layla Grace, please take the time to read her story and follow her Mom's updates on twitter. As a mom, this one is very hard for me.

My heart is also heavy for a dear family friend and former minister who was sent home this weekend with Hospice care. He has an incurable lung cancer caused by asbestos exposure. To see a man so strong in faith turn into a frail shell of his former self is difficult to swallow. He renewed my parents' wedding vows on their 30th anniversary 15 years ago and then preached my Dad's funeral 7 years later. A funeral, he admitted, was the most difficult for him to do as it was such a good friend lost. A friend, my father, gone to cancer as he soon will be, too.

Cancer sucks, dear friends. It SUCKS.